Disclaimer: i do not own My chemical romance or any of their songs. i am doing this purely out of love for the band. thank you (:
Chapter one - intro.
My name is Alexandra Way. I’m 16 and about to start my junior year of high school. I’m about 5’6” and weigh something around 135 pounds. I have jet black hair that is cut a little longer then my shoulders. I have it layered and I put my bangs over to the right side of my face. My hair was the same colour as my older brother Gerard’s. I have a random bright green highlight in my hair since I wanted to be different.
My eyes are a very bright green, which is really strange since my family has either Brown or hazel eyes.
We just moved from Newark, New Jersey to Belleville, New Jersey. Which means I have to start my junior year at Belleville academy, the same place my older brothers transferred to when they went to high school.
Which reminds me, My older brothers, Mikey and Gerard just left home again to go on a short tour two weeks ago. They started their band a year ago, My chemical romance since mikey and Gerard fell in love with that name. As they get more and more popular, they tend to not be home as much. It sucks not having them around since they were with me since I was born. They had pretty much been my heroes since as long as I remember. Gerard was into art and went to the School of Visual Arts in New York City. When he graduated I was in the front row smiling up at him. As for Mikey, he had always loved music. I used to watch him and his friends play in their bands whenever they practiced. Although, he had dropped out of college for the band, he was still my hero.
Having them home more often would be great but rightfully, I can’t tell them what to do. They love the band and are really good at it. It’s something they love and I can’t tear the away from them. I guess I’ll just have to deal with it……
Chapter two - the night before school started…
I sat down on the edge of my bed. My room was quiet. I never had people coming up since it was in the attic. It was a little creepy to my mom but honestly I loved it. Everything was dark and I never really used a lamp, I would rather use candles, even though mikey said I would die since I fall asleep with them lit. only Mikey and Gerard would come up to talk at night. My mom rarely came up.
I sighed and picked up my guitar. I aimed my webcam towards me. I had it set up on my laptop and I was live. I had it so it recorded everything at the same time. I started to play headfirst for halos, the first song I ever learned how to play from frank. I already knew the lyrics since I listened to Gerard sing. I started out playing.
I heard someone knock on the door right as I opened my mouth to sing. I put down my guitar and walked over to the door. I opened it.
“Alex, phone.” my mom handed me the phone and left. I closed the door behind me and locked it. I walked over and sat in my beanbag chair.
“hello?” I put the phone to my ear.
“hey, how’s jersey?” Gerard asked.
I sighed deeply, “it sucks gee. I miss you and mikey.” I choked back tears, I refused to let my family know how I felt, no matter what.
“I know Alex. Mom told us that you never come down stairs unless it’s too eat. And what’s this I hear you haven’t been eating at all?” Gerard seemed bugged. He always got nervous if I didn’t eat since he knew something was wrong if I didn’t.
“I don’t have a reason to eat. I hate it in Belleville. I want to got back Newark, to our old house, to my friends, to my life! I have no friends here and there is no one around.” I pulled my knees to my chest and covered my face with my free arm. I closed my eyes. The tears were during my eyes. I sniffled and started to cry quietly since I didn’t want gee to hear me crying. He may worry about me when he should be worrying about the concert tonight.
“I know Alex. It’s hard moving but we did it so we would have a bigger house.” Gerard sighed, “I wish I could help you but I can’t do much being California and all.”
“then come home.” I was shaking and crying, but I wouldn’t let Gerard hear me, so I had to cover the mouth piece each time I sniffled or coughed.
“Alex, you know I can’t.” Gerard sighed heavily.
“why not? I need you guys and I know mom wants you guys back home.” I wiped my eyes with my free hand. My eyeliner was coming off but I didn’t care.
“I know you need us. We can’t leave though, we have to finish up our last few gigs. We should be home by tomorrow.”
“But gee.”
“Alex, trust me. I want to be home with you, but we have the gigs. We’ll be home soon. I promise.”
I sighed and took a deep quivering breathe, “alright Gerard, is mikey around?”
“yeah he’s right next to me. Playing guitar hero.”
“can I talk to him?” I search under my bed for my lock box. I pulled it out and undid the lock with the key I had on my necklace.
“sure.” in the background you could hear Frank yell I got the high score, I told you I was better then Ray. I smiled. Frank always knew the way to make me laugh.
“hey Alex. How’s Jersey?” he laughed.
“hey mikey. And like I told gee, it sucks here I miss you.” I coughed. I had calmed down a lot since I talked to Gerard.
“I miss you too, but don’t worry we’ll be home soon.”
“I know gee told me.” I laughed a little.
“oh. Okay.” he laughed. “so, what have you been up too?”
“listening to music and talking to our friends in Newark through webcam. Which reminds me, Matt says hi.” Matt was Mikey’s best friend until we moved.
“tell him I said hi back.” he laughed. I heard frank yelling “HA I’M BETTER THEN YOU RAY!” I laughed.
“well, I gotta go. I need to do something. Good luck at your next concerts.”
“okay. Good luck at Belleville tomorrow. Love you and thanks.”
“thanks mikey. Love you too. Tell the guys I said hi. Peace.”
“okay, bye.” I hung up the phone and went down stairs. My mom was on the couch watching something on TV. I walked right by her and put the phone on the charger.
“feel better?” I shrugged and went back up into my room. Locking the door behind me.
I sat on the ground in front of my lock box and dug threw the papers. Most of them were notes my friends wrote me before I moved. There was a teddy bear my friend, Max gave me as a valentines gift. I put the bear on my bed along with the notes I kept digging until I found what I was looking for. I pulled out a pack of cigarettes and a lighter. I sat on my bed in front of my laptop and read the comments from people while I was talking to Gerard and mikey. I took out a cigarette and lit it. I took a long drag on it and finished reading the comments.
I typed, “okay people, I’m gonna take a shower since school starts tomorrow but before I got I’ll play ‘Headfirst for halos.’”
I picked up my guitar and started to play.
“Yeah!
Well let's go back to the middle of the day that starts it all
I can't begin to let you know just what I'm feeling
And now the red ones make me fly
And the blue ones help me fall
And I think I'll blow my brains against the ceiling
And as the fragments of my skull begin to fall
Fall on your tongue like pixie dust just think happy thoughts
And we'll fly home
We'll fly home
You and I
We'll fly home
Come on!
Well now I'm back in the middle of the day that starts it all.
I can't begin to let you know just what I'm feeling.
And now these red ones make me fly,
And the blue ones help me fall.
And I think I'll blow my brains against the ceiling.
And we'll fly home,
You and I,
We'll fly home.
Now honestly that's what I said to her, what I said to her
Think happy thoughts, Think happy thoughts, Think happy thoughts, Think happy thoughts Think happy thoughts Think happy thoughts Think happy thoughts Think happy thoughts Think ha... Wooo!”
I smiled as I finished the lyrics.
“thank you. That song was written and played by the guys of my chemical romance. I’ll put a link on my page to their website. Bye.” I turned off the camera and added the link to their website. I put out my cigarette and posted the video on you tube and wrote what it was all about it. I hid the cigarettes back in the box and locked it. I pushed it under my bed and sighed. Mikey and Gerard would kill me if they knew I smoked. They smoked but they didn’t want me too.
I walked over to my dresser and grabbed my tank top and pajama pants. I walked into my bathroom and put my clothes on the counter. I started the shower and took off all my clothes. I got in and sighed deeply.
I hope tomorrow goes okay…
Chapter three - Belleville Academy.
I sighed as I walked up the front steps. I wasn’t used to the campus or the uniforms. They forced us to wear grey skirts that stopped just above our knees, white dress shirts and a tie that was red and blue striped. We had to wear knee high socks and any shoes but sneakers. They wouldn’t allow us to wear sneakers unless we had PE. We also had to wear these jackets with the schools logo on it. They were navy blue and honestly, the ugliest things I’ve seen. I was okay with the shirt and skirt but the jackets had to go. I sighed as I looked down at my shoes. Atleast they let me wear my gothic boots with buckles going up the side. I smiled since it was the only thing gothic on me and I didn’t have to take them off. I looked down at my schedule. chemistry 2 room 238. I felt myself bump into some one. I fell and dropped my papers.
“oh, I’m really sorry, I wasn’t looking where I was going.” I got up.
“YOU SHOULD BE SORRY!” the girl screamed.
“I said sorry.” I went to walk by her but she slammed me on the wall. She had this tall girl hold me off the ground.
“I didn’t mean to bump into you. I didn’t want to start anything!” I shook.
“well, you did start something!” only then did I notice there was a large group of girls and guys following this girl around. The girl holding me pulled her fist back. I closed my eyes and waited for the impact.
“back off the newbie nikki.” I heard someone yell. I opened my eyes. There was a girl standing behind Nikki that wasn’t there before. She pushed nikki aside. I dropped to the ground and my hair covered my eyes so I didn’t see what happened to nikki and her crew.
“you okay?” the girl bent down and helped me pick up my papers.
“yeah. And thanks for that.”
“no problem. I’m Michelle Toro by the way.”
“Alexandra way. Aren’t you ray’s sister?” we walked into the building.
“yeah. You’re mikey and Gerard’s sister right?”
“yeah.” I smiled.
“I shoulda known. You look a lot like them.” she laughed.
“thanks. You remind me a lot of Ray, just with straight non fro-ish hair.” I laughed. I missed Gerard and Mikey a lot but Atleast they were going to be home soon.
“you have chemistry in 238 right?”
“yeah.”
“sweet, we have classes together.” she smiled and opened the door to the room. We took a seat in the back of the class.
“were you at the Newark gig?” she put her feet on the desk.
“yeah. That’s actually my home town.” I smiled and placed my bag on the desk.
“that’s where I remember you from.”
“backstage right? Dancing to the music?”
“yeah.” she laughed, “and then I joined in.”
I laughed. The teacher was talking about what we would need for this class. I already knew about it. The dean handed me everything when I met with her earlier. I sighed as the teacher took a seat at his desk, which was in the back of the room.
Neither of us realized that we were so close to his desk.
“sorry. I didn’t know.”
“it’s fine.” I smiled. We started laughing. I took out my cellphone.
“cover me. Make it look like we’re talking, I need to call someone.”
“alright.” Michelle leaned forward as I dialed the phone and put it to my ear, underneath my hair so the teacher didn’t see.
The house phone rang a lot. I sighed. No one was home meaning Gerard wasn’t back yet. Suddenly I heard someone say hello.
The phone disconnected when I went to say hello.
“dammit.” I closed my phone and shut it off.
“what?”
“someone answered my house phone and my mother is at work.”
“whoa, weird. I’d say it was one of the guys but they don’t get home until at least Wednesday.” she leaned back in her chair. The voice sound so much like Mikey’s.
I just wanted to be at home with them if they got back already. I missed them like hell.
The bell rang.
“Alex you okay?” Michelle looked at me funny.
“yeah never better.” I faked a smile. I’m not okay no matter how you look at it.
We headed towards our next class, American history. We opened the door and walked towards the back of the room. We snagged the last two desks in the back. The teacher was sound asleep at his desk in the front. Nikki walked over to us.
“um, I believe those desks belong to me and Carla.” she put her hands on the desk Michelle was sitting in.
“I don’t see you’re name on it.” Michelle stayed calm while I shook. Nikki got angrier with every second. I bit my bottom lip softly.
“nikki it’s just a desk. Can’t we sit somewhere else?” Carla said quietly.
“are you standing up for these…. These…. LOSERS?!” nikki turned in anger.
“um,,” Carla swallowed, “yes! Nikki I’m sick of you starting shit with people that didn’t do anything! Not everyone is like you!! Like a whore!” nikki’s eyes got huge and she stormed to the front of the classroom and took a seat.
Carla leaned over and whispered something in the ear of the guy in the desk in front of me. He got up and smiled. He moved a desk ahead and Carla sat down in the one he was just in. she turned and smiled.
“sorry about nikki. She’s a bitch.”
“no kidding.” I laughed.
“I’m Michelle Toro and she’s Alexandra way.” Michelle put her feet down.
“I’m Carla Iero. Call me carly since Carla sounds pretty gay.” she laughed.
“related to Frankie?” I asked.
“yeah half sister. He has a different dad.” she laughed.
I laughed too since I found it funny that three sisters of guys from My chemical romance go to the same school, have the same classes, and are now friends. I wonder if Bob has a sister we don’t know about. She reminded me of Frankie so much. She had black hair like his and even was short like him. Only her eyes were blue unlike Frankie’s.
The bell rang. The teacher didn’t even move the whole time we were in there.
We walked into the hallways. I was so busy talking to Carly and Michelle, I walked into someone and fell.
“oh my god, I’m so sorry.” I blushed.
“no it was my fault. I wasn’t looking were I was walking.” the guy said. He kneeled down in front of me and grabbed our papers. “need a hand?” he held out his hand. I took it and he pulled me up. He had blonde hair but his bangs were bright blue. He had ice blue eyes which was really different. He handed me my papers. I smiled.
“thanks. I’m Alexandra way. Call me lexi or Alex.”
“no problem and I’m Seth Ross.” he smiled.
I blushed and looked down. I noticed he was still holding my hand.
“lexi, we have to get to English.” Michelle nudged me.
“oh. Yeah. Bye Seth. I’ll see you later.” I smiled and hurried to English.
I took at seat in between Michelle and Carly. The teacher was talking about what we had to do this year in order to pass her class. I just rolled my eyes and looked over at Michelle. She was playing with her ipod. I looked over at carly she was about to fall asleep. I sighed. Today was going to take forever to be over.
Chapter four - Belleville Academy part 2
“Hey lexi!” carly was waving so I knew where she was. I wasn’t eating so I just sat at the table with her.
“not hungry?” Michelle looked over at me.
“nah, I’m vegan so I can’t really eat any of this.” I looked down at the table.
“lucky. The food here sucks. I only eat it when I feel like I’m gonna die.” Carly laughed.
I felt someone put a hand on my shoulder. I jumped.
“GET AWAY YOU RAPISIT!” I screamed and turned.
“rapist huh?” Seth smiled.
“oh, sorry. I hate when people come up behind me.” I turned back around. I could feel my face getting redder by the second.
“my bad. I don’t know this stuff. We only talked for a few minutes.” Seth sat next to me. I looked down at the table as my face got redder.
“it’s okay.” I played with the ends of my hair.
“lexi you okay?” carly looked at me funny.
“huh? Yeah of course.” I was shaking and my hands were sweating.
“you don’t look it.” Seth put his hand on my forehead. I fell back off my chair. “you okay?” he helped me up.
“I think so.” I fixed my skirt.
“I’m sorry.” Seth looked down. His face was turning red.
“no. it’s okay. It was my fault. I don’t have very good balance.” I looked down. My face started getting hot.
It was silent besides for the noises everyone else was making. No one at the table spoke.
“so uh…. How about MCR? Anyone like them?” Seth asked.
Michelle, Carly, and I started laughing really hard. Seth got embarrassed.
“sorry, I take it you don’t like that kind of music.”
“no Seth, we’re all related to them. Michelle is Ray’s sister, I’m Frankie’s half sister and Alex is Gerard and Mikey’s sister.” carly smiled.
“are you serious?”
“no Seth, we’re messing with you. OF COURSE WE’RE SERIOUS!” Michelle laughed.
It got quiet again.
“uh, Alex?” Seth tapped me on the shoulder.
“yeah?” I looked up at him. His face was redder then before.
“can I talk to you alone?” he asked nervously. I smiled.
“of course.” we stood up and walked out of the cafeteria. He took me outside to the front steps of the school. My face got redder as I thought of what he wanted to say.
“Alex…” I looked over at him. “I was, um, wondering if you wanted to hang out today after school.” he looked down at the ground. My heart stopped. could this really be happening? I smiled.
“sure.”
“I knew you were going to say that, sorry I asked.” he turned to walk away. “wait, you said yes?” he turned back. I nodded. “really?”
“yeah.” I smiled. He smiled and hugged me. I was in shock as he spun me around.
I laughed when he put me down. “here let me see your arm for a second.” I pulled out a pen and wrote my cell phone number on his arm.
“call me with the details.”
He smiled, “of course. Come on let’s get back to the café.” he started to walk. I smiled and grabbed his hand. His face turned red as he contuined to walk.
“wow, lexis’s smiling for once!” Michelle laughed.
“psh, I am usually happy.” I smiled.
“excepially when you hold Seth’s hand.” Carly pointed out. I blushed and let go. Seth blushed, “I’ll see you guys later.”
“okay. Bye.” I smiled as he walked away. I took a seat across from Michelle.
“details. Now!” she sat attentively.
“nothing happened.” I blushed and looked down at my hands. I didn’t want to tell them what Seth asked. It wasn’t really that big of a deal.
“psh, right. Then why were you both blushing?”
“I always blush.” I looked down.
“right. Anyways, he must have asked to see you after school.”
My eyes got huge. “what?”
“yeah, he did.” Carly smiled. “I can tell.”
“damn.” I looked up. “okay, he did. What’s the big deal?”
“the big deal is Seth is one of the hottest and most popular guys at this school!” Carly started ranting on about how Seth was talented and hot.
I looked back at Seth. He was sitting at a table with a bunch of other guys. They were all talking but Seth didn’t seem interested. He noticed I was looking over and smiled. I blushed and smiled back. was he really that popular?
The bell rang for 5th period. I sighed.
“what do we have now?”
“um… study hall according to the schedule.” Carly got up and grabbed her bag. We walked down the hallway to the library. We found a open table in the back and grabbed a chair.
“so, what are you guys going to do?” Carly asked.
“I don’t know. We didn’t have much time to talk so I gave him my number.” I heard a beep come from my bag. I opened it and discreetly took out my cell phone so I could see it. one new text message. I opened it.
“Alex, meet me in front of the school at the end of the day. I figured we could hang out at the cemetery or something. Love, Seth.” I blushed.
“what’s it say?” Michelle leaned in.
“he wants me to meet him in front of the school after classes.” I felt my face get hotter and I got dizzy.
“awesome.” Carly smiled.
“I guess. I’m just nervous.” my stomach started acting up.
“it’s okay. You’re probably just anxious.” Michelle laughed.
I nodded, “probably.” I leaned back in the chair and tested Seth back.
“okay. I’ll see you then. I’m just a little nervous about all of this.”
My phone beeped again. I opened the text message. “it’s okay. I am too. See you then.” I didn’t bother texting back since the teacher was walking by. I put my phone into my bag and grabbed a book off the shelf next to me. I didn’t care what it was since I wasn’t going to read it. I opened it to the middle and pretended to read until the teacher walked away.
“anyway, where’s the cemetery?”
“near the green in the center of town. Why?” Carly looked up from the book she had open, she snuck a magazine into the middle and was reading that.
“Seth wants to hang there.”
“oh.”
“cemetery sex.” Michelle said laughing.
I started to laugh. “yeah totally.”
The bell rang for last period.
“damn, 45 minutes went by quick.” I laughed as we walked into the hall.
“I know. What do we have now?” Carly asked.
“um… Art. According to my schedule.” Michelle said looking at a piece of paper.
“alright. Where is that?” I looked over to her.
“down the hall, pass the gym.” Carly smiled.
We were right outside the class when Nikki grabbed me. I let out a scream.
“what’s this I hear you have plans to spend time with Seth?”
“huh?” I started to shake.
“nikki lay off!” Carly walked over to my side.
“no way bitch.” she looked back to me. “lay off of Seth. He’s mine.” she let me go and walked away. I was breathing sort of heavily.
“dude. Fuck her. You can hang with Seth all you want.” Carly said when we were walking into class.
“ms. Iero. Language.” the teacher said as he rose from his desk.
“sorry sir.” we walked over to the only open table.
“okay class. Since it’s the first day just talk or sketch. It doesn’t matter but next class we have to start our projects.” the teacher sat back down at his desk.
“here, just make it look like we’re doing something. This guy has major issues if you don’t do anything. Frankie told me.” Carly handed me and Michelle a piece of paper.
“yeah mikey said the same thing. Gerard said he didn’t have to worry since all he does is draw.” I laughed and started to doodle.
“Alex, don’t be afraid of nikki. She won’t do much.” Carly was drawing little hearts everywhere.
“I know. But still, I think I’ll tell Seth I don’t feel good.” I contuined to sketch.
“no. you can’t!” Michelle looked at me weird. “I know you want to. Don’t let nikki scare you.”
:I’m not afraid of her. I just….” I sighed. “I just don’t feel good .”
“lexi.” Michelle gave me a look.
“Michelle. Don’t.”
“you’re going.”
I sighed. There was no way I could get out of it. “fine. I’ll go.”
“good. Now, you’re going right from school?”
“I guess. I’m not sure.” I shrugged.
“oh, I’d was going to say if you weren’t going from school, change into you’re normal clothes.” Michelle laughed.
“I know. I can’t stand this outfit.” I laughed.
Carly looked over. “what are you drawing Alex?”
I looked down, “it’s something Gee was working on. It’s a scene from his comic.”
“cool.” she laughed.
“yeah. Gee inspires me to do a lot of things.” I smiled.
“gee would want you to go out with Seth tonight.” Carly smiled.
“probably.” I laughed.
The bell rang for the end of school. My stomach started to hurt really bad as we headed towards the front stairs. We walked out the door and down the stairs. I waited at the bottom with Michelle and Carly. They promised to leave when Seth came over. I sat on the bottom step. why do I get the feeling he stood me up? I took out my cell phone and text him. “where are you?”
I looked around and sighed,
“lexi I’m so sorry. Do you need a ride home?” Michelle hugged me.
“no, I’ll walk.” I got up from the steps. I hugged Carly.
“here. I’ll give you my number.” I took out a piece of paper and wrote down my number.
“alright. I’ll call you later if I hear from ray.” Michelle hugged me and left.
“same if I hear from Frankie.” Carly hugged me and left. I sighed. I looked around the campus thinking that maybe Seth was running late and just coming down the stairs. Seth was no where to be found. what the hell Seth!
Chapter five- home at last
I started walking home. The tears built up with every step. I crossed threw yards and hopped fences to get there faster. I made it to the corner of Salter place. I was about eight house away from my house. I started to cry as I got closer. I couldn’t believe he stood me up. I opened the door to my house.
“hey. I’m home.” I yelled as I took off my shoes. I walked into the kitchen.
“mom? Dad?” I poured myself a cup of coffee and took a sip. No one answered. I walked around the corner and into the living room.
Where the fuck is everyone? I looked around the first floor. I headed up the stairs and checked mikey and Gerard’s room. I doubted they would be home but I might as well check.
I opened the door at the bottom of the stairs that headed to my room. My clothes were folded neatly at the bottom of the stairs. I grabbed the basket and headed up. I dropped it at the top and grabbed my bright green tank top and my black skinny jeans. I went into my bathroom and changed. I headed back out and turned on my laptop. I heard the house phone ring. I ran down the stairs and grabbed the phone.
“hello?” I answered trying to sound happy. I knew it wasn’t convincing but still.
“hello, is this Alexandra way?” the person sounded familiar.
“yeah…” I felt uncomfortable.
“you have no idea who I am do you?” the person started laughing and I automatically knew who it was.
“frank I’ll kill you.” I laughed.
“oh really?” I felt a hand on my shoulder.
I screamed and fell. I moved my hair and looked up. “Frankie!” I got up and punched him in the arm. “I fucking hate you.”
“Alex, watch your language.” frank laughed.
“I can’t it’s impossible to watch it since it’s only sounds.” I stuck my tounge out.
He laughed.
“wait… you guys are back?
“duh.” he laughed.
“then where’s gee and mikey?” I looked around.
“what do you mean where am I??” mikey picked me up from behind.
“MIKEY!” I smiled as he put me down. I hugged him. “I fucking missed you.”
“lexi, don’t swear.” mikey laughed. “and I missed you too.”
“where’s gee?” I looked around the room it was only me, mikey and frank.
“not sure. He was outside on the front porch.” I walked out. Gerard was laying in a bush.
“oh fuck. GERARD!” I ran over and helped him up. “you okay?”
He smelled like alcohol. He stood there swaying.
“yeah, I’m just a little drunk.” he smiled and hugged me.
I sighed heavily and hugged him back.
“oh my god, I killed a bunch of plants. My bad.” he laughed and headed inside. I helped him up the stairs since he looked like he was about to fall.
Gerard fell on the couch. Mikey sat next to him and Frank headed to the kitchen, probably to eat more food. I kneeled on the ground next to him.
“Gerard, mom’s going to spaz when she sees you’re drunk.”
“oh shit. Oh well.” he started to laugh. I stood up and walked into the kitchen.
“Gee, I’m making coffee want some?”
“yeah.” he laughed again.
“OH MY GOD. COFFEE?! LEXI I WANT SOME!” mikey screamed.
I smiled and poured the coffee into two cups. I knew Gerard wasn’t going to drink all of his so I figured I drink the rest.
“here.” I handed a cup to mikey and helped Gerard up so he was actually sitting instead of laying on the couch. “here gee.” I sat on the coffee table and looked up at him.
“so how was Belleville?” Frank sat in the chair next to me.
“I met your sister and ray’s sister. Besides for that, I got stood up by Seth Ross. School it’s self was fine.” I looked down. why did I have to mention Seth? Now I am going to have to listen to mikey tell me it’s okay when it’s not.
“cool. And where does Seth live?” Gerard stood up.
“sit the fuck down Gerard. What are you going to do? Beat up a 16 year old?” frank glared at him. “now Alex, it’s okay. Trust me, at Belleville people can be stuck up snobs.”
I sighed, “I know but he was really happy when I said I’d hang out with him. Then there’s Nikki. She’s such a bitch. She tried to have some chick kick my ass since I bumped into her. She fucking told me to back off Seth since he was her’s supposedly.” the tears burned my eyes.
“can I kick her ass?” Gerard looked over at frank.
“no gee, you can’t kick her ass.”
“but the bitch is trying to hurt my baby sister.” he took a sip of coffee.
“gee, it’s fine. Trust me.” I smiled weakly. I just needed to make it seem like I was okay.
“lexi, are you sure?” mikey smiled.
“yeah. I’m gonna go up to my room.” I hugged the guys and slowly made my way up the stairs. With every step I could feel more and more tears build up. I made it into my room and closed the door. I walked over to the window and kneeled on the floor. The sky was dark already. It had to be around Atleast 8. I sighed and opened the window. I climbed out and sat on the roof. There was a flat part right outside the window. I covered my face and started to cry. I wanted to just runaway back to Newark. My cell phone started to ring. I sighed and answered.
“hello?” I wiped my eyes.
“did he show up after we left?” Michelle asked.
“no.” I sniffled and coughed.
“that ass hole!” carly yelled. “I swear to go I am going to kill him!”
“carly, chill. It’s no big deal.” I coughed again.
“fine. I have to go anyway. Bye.” Carly hung up.
“I gotta go too. See ya tomorrow lexi.” Michelle said.
“peace.” I hung up.
I sighed and climbed back into my room. Gerard opened the door and walked over.
“hey, you okay?” he sat next to me.
“why does it matter?” I sighed and turned so Gerard couldn’t see my face. I was crying really hard.
“it matters since you’re my little sister. I gotta watch out for you.” Gerard was slurring his words since he was still drunk.
“whatever. Can you just leave? I sorta want to be alone right now.” I sniffled.
“okay.” he hugged me and left. I sighed and started to cry more.
Maybe I should just disappear or just runaway……
Chapter six - fralex?
I burried my face in a pillow. I had been crying for almost two hours. I sat up and started coughing. There was a knock one the door. I ignored it. It was either Gerard or mikey, and I didn’t want to talk to them. I heard the door open but I didn’t budge. I kept my eyes locked on the window.
“Alex, you okay?” I couldn’t see who it was but I knew it wasn’t mikey or Gerard.
I sniffled, “I guess.” I turned on the light next to my bed. Frank stood in front of me.
“you know, you’re a lot prettier when you aren’t crying.” he sat next to me.
“obviously not. Seth stood me up. I can’t be pretty.” I wiped my eyes as I felt frank’s arm wrap around me.
“you are. Seth is just retarded to stand up a girl like you. You’re fucking amazing.” he rested his head on mine.
I sighed deeply, “whatever.” the tears burned my eyes.
“Alex.” frank moved my head so I was looking at him. My eyes were full of tears but I wouldn’t allow them to fall. “you are beautiful. And….” he stopped and looked into my eyes. My face got hotter and my heart sped up. Frank smiled and leaned in little. My heart sped up and it got harder to breath. “the more I think about it……” he leaned in closer. I could fell his breath on my lips. I could feel his arms wrapping around me. “you’re perfect.” he kissed me. His lips were amazingly soft. My heart skipped a beat. He pulled back.
“Alex? You look sick… did I do something wrong?” he looked upset as he let go. I couldn’t speak and my breath got shorter. My hands started to get clammy. I smiled.
“no. you didn’t.” my heart started to slow down a little.
“good.” he leaned in again. He kissed me passionately. I put my arms around his neck. I could feel his hand moving up from my knee.
My face grew hotter with every second. The kiss seemed to last forever. It was interrupted by my ring tone. I let out a sigh and picked it up.
“hello?” I sounded a little uneasy.
“hey Alex.” my heart stopped.
“S-Seth?” my eyes filled with tears.
“yeah, I’m sorry about before. Are you free right now?”
I looked at frank, who was now getting off the bed. He headed towards the door.
“no Seth.” I watched frank opened the door at the bottom of the stairs and walk out. My eyes filled with tears.
“oh, okay. I’ll see you tomorrow at school.”
“whatever. Peace.” I hung up.
I touched my lips. was what frank said true? I could still feel frank’s lips on mine. All I could think of was how passionate his kiss was. I got up and walked down the stairs and made my way into the kitchen. I over heard frank and mikey talking.
“mikey, do you think I really am?”
I poured a cup of coffee quietly.
“I don’t know frank. I mean, if she is like all you think about then I guess you do. More importantly, how’d you feel when you kissed her?”
There was a pause.
“I liked it a lot. My stomach was uneasy and my hands started to sweat. When I looked into her eyes before… it was…. Different. Like when I would do that to my ex, I didn’t feel anything but with her, my heart stopped.” I could hear frank pacing.
“aw, you love her.” mikey laughed.
“shut up mikey.” I heard frank walk towards the kitchen. I made it look like I had just gotten coffee and was about to walk back up stairs. Frank grabbed my hand causing me to stop. When I turned around he pushed me gently against the wall and kissed me. He pulled back and smiled. I could feel the coffee mug slipping out of my hands. Frank grabbed it so it wouldn’t fall.
“I’m gonna need to talk to you in a little while. When they fall asleep.” he whispered in my ear. He smiled and let me go. I headed up stairs. I smiled as I opened the door to the stairs. I closed it and walked over to my bed. The images of frank kissing me played over and over in my mind. could I possibly be in love?
Chapter six - fralex?
I burried my face in a pillow. I had been crying for almost two hours. I sat up and started coughing. There was a knock one the door. I ignored it. It was either Gerard or mikey, and I didn’t want to talk to them. I heard the door open but I didn’t budge. I kept my eyes locked on the window.
“Alex, you okay?” I couldn’t see who it was but I knew it wasn’t mikey or Gerard.
I sniffled, “I guess.” I turned on the light next to my bed. Frank stood in front of me.
“you know, you’re a lot prettier when you aren’t crying.” he sat next to me.
“obviously not. Seth stood me up. I can’t be pretty.” I wiped my eyes as I felt frank’s arm wrap around me.
“you are. Seth is just retarded to stand up a girl like you. You’re fucking amazing.” he rested his head on mine.
I sighed deeply, “whatever.” the tears burned my eyes.
“Alex.” frank moved my head so I was looking at him. My eyes were full of tears but I wouldn’t allow them to fall. “you are beautiful. And….” he stopped and looked into my eyes. My face got hotter and my heart sped up. Frank smiled and leaned in little. My heart sped up and it got harder to breath. “the more I think about it……” he leaned in closer. I could fell his breath on my lips. I could feel his arms wrapping around me. “you’re perfect.” he kissed me. His lips were amazingly soft. My heart skipped a beat. He pulled back.
“Alex? You look sick… did I do something wrong?” he looked upset as he let go. I couldn’t speak and my breath got shorter. My hands started to get clammy. I smiled.
“no. you didn’t.” my heart started to slow down a little.
“good.” he leaned in again. He kissed me passionately. I put my arms around his neck. I could feel his hand moving up from my knee.
My face grew hotter with every second. The kiss seemed to last forever. It was interrupted by my ring tone. I let out a sigh and picked it up.
“hello?” I sounded a little uneasy.
“hey Alex.” my heart stopped.
“S-Seth?” my eyes filled with tears.
“yeah, I’m sorry about before. Are you free right now?”
I looked at frank, who was now getting off the bed. He headed towards the door.
“no Seth.” I watched frank opened the door at the bottom of the stairs and walk out. My eyes filled with tears.
“oh, okay. I’ll see you tomorrow at school.”
“whatever. Peace.” I hung up.
I touched my lips. was what frank said true? I could still feel frank’s lips on mine. All I could think of was how passionate his kiss was. I got up and walked down the stairs and made my way into the kitchen. I over heard frank and mikey talking.
“mikey, do you think I really am?”
I poured a cup of coffee quietly.
“I don’t know frank. I mean, if she is like all you think about then I guess you do. More importantly, how’d you feel when you kissed her?”
There was a pause.
“I liked it a lot. My stomach was uneasy and my hands started to sweat. When I looked into her eyes before… it was…. Different. Like when I would do that to my ex, I didn’t feel anything but with her, my heart stopped.” I could hear frank pacing.
“aw, you love her.” mikey laughed.
“shut up mikey.” I heard frank walk towards the kitchen. I made it look like I had just gotten coffee and was about to walk back up stairs. Frank grabbed my hand causing me to stop. When I turned around he pushed me gently against the wall and kissed me. He pulled back and smiled. I could feel the coffee mug slipping out of my hands. Frank grabbed it so it wouldn’t fall.
“I’m gonna need to talk to you in a little while. When they fall asleep.” he whispered in my ear. He smiled and let me go. I headed up stairs. I smiled as I opened the door to the stairs. I closed it and walked over to my bed. The images of frank kissing me played over and over in my mind. could I possibly be in love?
Chapter seven - what’s stopping you?
Mikey, Gerard, and Frank walked into my room around 11.
“lexi, we’re gonna go to sleep. Try and get some sleep yourself.” Mikey hugged me.
“okay, mikey. Night.” I smiled.
“night Alex.” Gerard hugged me tightly.
“night gee.” he let go and walked down the stairs holding the railing tightly so he didn’t fall. Mikey followed him down and helped him into his room.
Frank and I were the only people left. I sat on my bed and smiled up at him.
“you know, I’ve been thinking a lot about before.” he sat next to me, close enough so I could smell the cologne he was wearing.
“same here.” I smiled. He lifted my head so we were looking into each others eyes. My heart skipped a beat. I had never felt this way about anyone. I never excepted me to feel this way about frank. I had always known frank to be the guy who would make me laugh no matter how I felt, the guy who would always pick me up and carry me on his shoulders no matter how old I got, the guy who helped my brothers get discovered.
“well, I…. um…. God, this is harder then I thought.” he looked down at the ground.
I looked at him and smiled, “frank, I already know, I overheard you and mikey talking.”
“then you’d understand why we can’t be together.”
“what?” my heart stopped. frank please be kidding!
“we can’t date. It would be wrong. I mean you’re brothers are my best friends. They would get upset.”
The tears swelled in my eyes, “MIKEY AND GERARD WON’T CARE! AS LONG AS I’M HAPPY THEY WON’T CARE!” I coughed back the tears.
“Alex…” frank went to put his hand on my shoulder.
“DON’T FUCKING TOUCH ME! I CAN’T BELIEVE YOU CARE MORE ABOUT WHAT THEY THINK THEN HOW YOU FEEL!”
“but Alex-”
“NO BUTS! IF YOU DIDN’T WANT TO BE WITH ME THEN WHY THE FUCK DID YOU KISS ME?!”
“I…” he sighed. I stormed out of the room and down the stairs. I opened the door and walked out. I wiped my eyes. I walked down the street, forcing myself not to cry. I didn’t care where I went. I just wanted to get away from him. I couldn’t believe he kissed me and it basically didn’t mean anything. I was outraged. I kept walking, having no place in mind to go. I need time alone.
I took a deep, quivering breath. I walked on to the playground behind the elementary school. I sat on the swing and stared at the ground. I sat in silence, minus the squeaks coming from the swing. The silence was disrupted by a voice.
“I’m sorry.” Frank stood in front of me.
“I don’t care.” I turned my head sharply.
“you were right. If you truly love someone then you shouldn’t let other people’s opinions stop you from being with them.”
“big deal. You figured that out but what are you going to do?” I stood up.
Frank moved closer,” I planned on doing this.” he pulled me in and smiled, “I do love you, whether you believe it or not.” he kissed me lightly at first. He pulled back for a second and moved my hair. “now do you believe me?”
“not one bit.” I stuck my tounge out.
“maybe this should help.” he pushed me back gently so I was leaning on the bar. He kissed me passionately. He started to kiss my neck. My face got warmer as he went on. I could feel his breath on my neck. The warmth from his breath warmed my whole body.
It started to get harder to breathe as he moved his hand slowly up my leg. My breaths got shorter every second. I placed my arms around frank’s neck. He contuined to kiss my neck and he started to move lower. I started to dig my nails into his back lightly. I started to feel hotter.
“frank..” I started to breathe deeply.
“believe me now?” he smiled and let me up.
I nodded as I caught my breathe.
“good. Now will you just come home?” he smiled and grabbed my hand, leading me over to his car. I was still a little messed up from before so I just followed him.
We walked into the house. It was dark and silent. I started up the stairs towards my room. Frank followed me up. He closed the door when we got to my room. I laid down on the bed. My heart beat quickened as frank laid next to me. He got on top of me and smiled. He kissed me and started to move his hands down my sides. I moved my arms around his waist. He kissed my bottom lip gently. He started to take off my shirt. It started to get warmer for some reason as he dropped my shirt on the floor. I started to take off his shirt as he moved from my lips to my neck. I felt his hands go down towards my jeans. My face started to turn red as he undid the top button. He contuined to kiss my neck.
“frank….” I reached to the side and grabbed a pillow. I shoved it in his face. We both sat up.
“did I do something wrong?” he looked like he was upset.
“no. I just think we’re moving to fast. I mean, we just started dating an hour ago.” I grabbed my shirt and put it back on.
“oh. Okay.” he smiled and kissed me.
We laid back down on the bed. I rested my head on frank’s chest. I felt him place his arm around my hip. He held me closely.
“I love you baby.” he kissed my forehead.
I yawned, “I love you too Frankie.” I put my arm around his stomach. I closed my eyes, and I always have loved you.
Chapter eight - fake friends
I sat next to Michelle.
“wow, someone’s happy.”
“I have a good reason.” I smiled.
“and it is?” she laughed.
“I have a kick ass boyfriend.” I smiled as I thought of frank. I missed him but right after school he was going to be there to pick me up and take me out.
“WHO?! IT BETTER NOT BE SETH. I’LL KICK YOUR ASS!”
“ew. Fuck no. I won’t date that asshole.” I laughed.
“then who?” she sat on the edge of her chair, waiting for me to revile my boyfriends name.
I smiled largely, “frank.”
“Iero? Really?” I nodded and smiled. “wow. That’s kickass. What happened with you and Seth last night?”
I looked down, “he called me right when I was hanging with frank in my room. He was apologizing and asking if I wanted to hang out. I wouldn’t even if I wasn’t with frank.”
“WHOA! You’re dating frank?” Carly walked over and sat.
“yeah, why?” I looked over at her.
“frank didn’t say anything when he came home last night.” she gave me a look.
“… he didn’t go home last night. He was asleep next to me. He even got me up in time for school.”
Carly looked nervous. I looked at her.
“carly, are you hiding something?” Michelle leaned forward to look at her.
“n-no.” carly laughed nervously.
“wait… frank doesn’t have a sister. I remember he’s an only child.” Michelle glared over at carly. “so who are you really?”
“Carla Iero. I told you.”
Michelle glared at her, “hold on a minute.” Michelle got up and walked over to the teacher.
“good try bitch. You’re Carla santini .” Michelle sat back down.
“what the fuck! Wait… this makes so much sense. You were best friends with nikki. You made me wait for Seth and have my feelings hurt. This was all set up! You were just using us for dirt!” I glared over. “you’re just like nikki.”
“fine you got me! I was using you! And now that I have dirt on you to nikki and I can ruin your reputations!” Carla laughed and walked away.
“I’M GONNA FUCKING KILL HER!” Michelle got up and went to go after her. I pulled her back.
“not now.” I kept my eyes locked on the desk. “just wait until gym where we can get her.”
“fine. But if she set up the whole thing with Seth…. What’s Seth hiding from us?”
My stomach dropped. I started to feel sick. what was he hiding?
[two periods later during lunch]
“Seth, come here.” Michelle dragged him over. He sat across from me.
“we know about Carla and nikki’s plan. We know you are in on it. Now why?”
“what? I’m not in with them! Believe me!” he begged.
My eyes swelled up with tears, “I want to but I can’t. I know it’s not true.”
“Alex, I’m telling the truth.”
“Michelle.” Michelle ball up her fist.
“Alex, I’m telling the truth! Please! Believe me!”
I looked down, “Michelle let him go. He’s telling the truth. But none the less, I probably won’t be hanging out with you.”
“why?” he looked confused.
“my reputation is ruined. I don’t want to fuck up your’s. so go hang out with your popular friends. I’m sorry.” I didn’t look up.
“if that’s what you want.” he got up and walked away. I put my head down on the table.
“it’s okay.” Michelle put her hand on my back.
“no it’s not. My reputation is going to be ruined. I figured, a new school, a new chance for a new life. No one had to know I was related to gee or mikey, or that I know MCR.”
“what’s the big deal if people know?”
“Michelle, my old school people used to hang out with me just to get to Gerard or mikey. I figured here, no one would know. I figured people would want to know me for me.”
“oh.” Michelle looked down, “that’s why I hide the fact that I’m a Toro. I straighten my hair every morning so no one can tell.”
I nodded. We sat in silence for the rest of the lunch period. I didn’t want to talk. I just wanted the day to end. god, this can’t last any longer.
Chapter nine- Tour news and relationships.
I stood outside the school. I was freezing.
“well, my rides here. See ya.” Michelle hugged me and walked away. I sat on the stairs. I started to shake. where the fuck is frank?
“hey, glad to see you’re still here.”
I turned sharply, “oh, it’s you.” I turned back. Seth took a seat next to me.
“I know you don’t want to see me but I want to see you.”
“whatever.” I refused to look at him.
He moved my head so I was looking at him. He kissed me gently.
I saw frank’s car pull up. I ran down the stairs with out even glancing back at Seth. I opened the door and sat down. I pulled my knees to my chest and covered my head.
“whoa, babe, you okay?” frank put his arm on my shoulder.
“no. I can’t take it! I know it’s only my second day but my reputation is shot, Carla lied to get dirt on me and Michelle, and Seth….” I sobbed, “Seth fucking wants to date me know. And I can’t even tell him about you.”
“why not?” Frank drove out of the parking lot.
“if people found out I was dating you and that I knew everyone in MCR, they would use me to get to you guys.”
“Alex, don’t worry about it.” Frank smiled, “I have good news.”
“what?”
“we’re going on tour again but this one is for about 6 months.”
“how is that good? I won’t see you.” I pouted. figures, right when I get a guy he leaves.
“I said we. As in me you and the guys.” he smiled.
“what?!”
“you’re coming with us.” he smiled, “I got Brian to let you go. Michelle’s coming too.”
I screamed, “OH MY FUCKING GOD!!!! THIS FUCKING RULES!!! OH MY GOD!!!!!”
Frank just laughed.
We pulled into the driveway and I ran into the house.
“GERARD! MIKEY! WHERE ARE YOU?!” I screamed as I ran into the kitchen to get coffee.
“what?” mikey walked up the stairs that led into the basement.
“I can really go on tour with you guys?!” I smiled.
“yeah.” he smiled. I hugged him.
“when do we leave?” I was really excited since I never got to see what a tour was like.
“tomorrow morning. We would have told you when we found out but Brian said to wait. We got all the work from your school already so you won’t fall behind.”
“sweet! I’m gonna go pack.” I ran up the stairs. I opened the door to my room and ran up the stairs. I grabbed my suitcase from my closet and opened my draws and grabbed most of the clothes out of it.
I felt a hand on my shoulder. I turned and smiled.
Frank smiled and hugged me, “need some help?”
“sure.” I smiled. He opened the top draw which just happened to be my underwear draw.
“wow… you got some pretty sexy stuff.” he laughed and dropped everything he thought was hot into the suitcase.
I rolled my eyes, ‘yeah, too bad you won’t be seeing it besides for now.” I stuck my tounge out.
“I saw a good amount last night.” he sat on my bed.
I could feel myself blushing. I closed the suitcase and zippered it. I had almost all my clothes in it.
I reached into my closet and grabbed the other suitcase at the bottom. I put a few of my jackets and sweatshirts in. I walked into my bathroom and grabbed my brush, straightener, and a few other things. I placed them in my suitcase and walked over to my desk. I grabbed my art supplies off the top and placed them in. I sat next to frank.
“I think I finally have almost everything.” I laughed.
“what could you be missing?” he looked around.
“well, my laptop, guitar, and of course my ipod. Oh and my hello kitty I got from Gerard for my birthday.” I smiled.
Frank smiled and put his hand on my thigh. He lifted my head and kissed me. I kissed him back. He pushed me lightly down on the bed. His lips pressed lightly against my neck. I heard the door open. I pushed frank back.
“Alex….” Gerard stood at the top of the stairs
“what?” I looked at Gerard. oh god, please tell me he didn’t see anything! I started to sweat.
“nothing I just came up to see if you were done packing. I made us dinner…. Well, mikey did since I can’t cook.” Gerard laughed.
I let out a relieved sigh. Gerard walked down the stairs. Frank went to get up. I grabbed his arm and stood up.
“Frank… maybe… we should just tell them.” I bit my bottom lip. We needed to tell them eventually.
Frank was silent for a second, “okay. If it’s what you want.”
“thank you Frankie.” I smiled and kissed his cheek. “can we tell them tonight, like during dinner?”
“fine.” Frank walked down the stairs. He didn’t seem too happy about it.
“I’ll be down in a second, I need to change out of my uniform.” I grabbed a pair of skinny jeans and a hello kitty shirt out of my dresser and changed quickly. I couldn’t wait to tell Gerard and Mikey. They would be so happy. I smiled and head down stairs.
“YOU’RE WHAT?!” Gerard stood up.
“Gerard, hunny, please don’t get mad.” my mom touched Gerard’s hand.
“NO MOM! SHE’S DATING FRANK!”
“I know sweetie, I’ve been sitting here the whole time.” my mom seemed relaxed, as if she didn’t care at all.
While Gerard was going off, Mikey walked over to my side.
“just let me know if he hurts you.” Mikey smiled, “and congrats.” he headed up stairs. He was probably just as sick as I was of seeing Gerard get pissed off.
“ALEX, I WON’T LET YOU DATE HIM!”
“why not Gerard?!” Frank had left just moments before to head home since he still had to pack. He told me to head over afterwards.
“HE’S MESSED UP! HE’LL JUST USE YOU UNTIL HE CAN HAVE SEX WITH YOU!” Gee and I were standing in front of the stairs.
“THAT’S NOT TRUE!” I screamed, the tears burned my eyes. it’s not fucking true!
“Alex, I’m sorry but I won’t let you.” Gerard had calmed down a lot.
“it doesn’t matter what you say! I’ll still love him! He actually cares about me!” a few tears rolled down my cheeks.
“I care about you too.” Gerard put his hand on my shoulder.
“then if you really did, you wouldn’t care who I dated, as long as they made me happy!” I walked out the door and down the street.
Chapter ten- Elena
I wiped my eyes and knocked on the door. It opened.
“Alex, are you okay?” Frank asked as he grabbed my hand.
I shook my head rapidly. He led me to his room and closed the door.
“okay, what happened after I left?”
“Gerard… he won’t let me date you. He said you’d only use me for sex. It’s not true!” I was sobbing uncontrobally.
“Alex, this isn’t a surprise. I knew Gerard would react like that.” he sat on his bed. “come here.”
I walked over and sat on his lap.
“but, Frankie, I…. I just want him to be okay with it. I love you. you make me happy, why can’t he just… I don’t know… accept it? Why can’t he be happy for me.” I burried my face in my hands.
“I love you too, but he’s an older brother, it’s what they do.” he placed his arms around my waist gently.
I nodded, “but, can’t he just be happy for me?”
“I don’t know Alex.” he pulled me closer. I moved off of Frank’s lap and layed back on his bed. He smiled and layed next to me.
“feel better now?” he leaned over me.
“not really.” frank leaned in and kissed me. “now I do.” I laughed and kissed him again. He smiled, “what are we gonna do about tomorrow?” I sat up.
“I don’t know. Gerard might still be pissed off since I just walked out.”
“oh, well, whatever happens…. I’ll be by your side.”
I smiled and leaned back on him, “I love you.” I turned my head slightly.
“I love you too.” he kissed me.
“do you think I should go back?” I bit my lip. It had been over an hour since I left.
“if you want. I’ll give you a ride.” he sat up.
“only if you’ll stay with me. I don’t want to take a chance alone with gee.” I stood up.
“alright. Just help me carry my bags.” he smiled.
I picked up one bag, the lightest one, and carried it out to the car. Frank took the rest and placed them in the trunk.
“thanks. That one bag might have killed me.” he laughed as he opened the door for me.
“you’re welcome.” I laughed. He closed the door and slid across the hood of the car. He fell off.
“FRANK!” I looked over to see if he was okay.
He stood up, “I’m okay.” I started to laugh. He started the car.
[10 minutes later, back at the way house]
“hi, I’m back.” I opened the door and looked around. Everyone was in the living room.
I walked over, Mikey had tears running down his face. My mother was covering her face. Gerard was staring at the ceiling. My father was looking at the floor. It was deathly silent.
“guys, what’s wrong?” I looked at them all. I was really confused.
Mikey stood up and head towards me.
“she’s gone.”
“who?” I looked at him.
“grandma.” my eyes filled with tears as mikey spoke that sentence.
“mikey, no…. no…. it can’t be true!” I covered my face. Mikey hugged me.
“it’s not your fault.” Mikey pulled me in closer. I couldn’t breathe since I was crying uncontrobally.
“Mikey, let go, please.” he did as I said.
I turned to frank. He was in shock when I grabbed on to him. He put his arms around me.
“Alex, I’m so sorry.”
“can we go up to my room?” I looked up at him.
He nodded and headed up with me. I fell on to my bed as soon as I got in. I burried my face in the pillow.
“Alex, your cell is going off.” Frank nudged me. I grabbed my cell.
“hello?”
“Alex, you okay?” Michelle sounded worried.
“not really. My grandmother just died.”
“OH MY GOD! I’M SO SORRY!”
“Michelle, it’s okay. It just hurts a little.” I sniffled and sat up.
“I’ll call you later. Or I’ll see you tomorrow.”
“alright, peace.” I hung up.
Frank sat on the edge of the bed, “you okay?”
I nodded, “yeah, it’s just upsetting.”
“yeah.” he put his arm around me.
“frank, there’s a box in my closet, can you grab me the pack of cigarettes?”
“you smoke?” he asked as he grabbed the pack out of the closet.
“yeah. I started when we were selling our house in Newark.”
He handed me the pack and his lighter.
“thanks.” I pulled one out and lit it.
“so, you ready for tomorrow?” he asked.
I looked at my phone, “it’s midnight so it is techanilly tomorrow.” I laughed.
He smiled, “well, are you ready to go on tour with us?”
“of course. I’m a Way, I can handle anything!” I forced a smiled even though I was hurt.
The ash fell off the tip of the cigarette. well almost anything.
“I need to talk to gee for a minute.” I got up and walked quickly down the stairs to Gerard’s room. He was sitting on the edge of his bed looking at a picture.
I knocked on the door even though it was open.
“hey Alex.” Gerard turned. I walked over and sat next to him. ‘I’ve been thinking. MCR should write a song for grandma.”
I smiled, “I think she’d be happy.” I put my hand on gee’s shoulder. The picture he had in his hands was the one taken last year at our Christmas party. I was holding on to Mikey and Gerard. My grandmother was in the chair in front of us. We all looked so happy.
It’s scary how one minute someone is there and the next their gone.